June 13, 2016

A weekend with my bae’s family. I felt it was too soon. So many “but if’s” running through my head. The second I met them and said hello I was so glad I came. They are all things wonderful and I needed this deeper perspective of this man. I feel lucky to have met him.

If I can manage to not be the rebellious independent soul that I am and stop pushing him purposefully away I just may be able to have all the lovely things that I can sense are awaiting me with him. Calm down child and. just. breath.

I say you – bright eyes, quiet lips, Keenly observing my every breath.
I dare look you in the eyes for I fear to see the bright stars and reflected magic in them.

You say me – a fine bottle of moet and sunshine on a cloudy day.

I say you – the possible and hoped for – light joy freedom – love.

You say me – will hold my hand if I let you.

I scream you – how can you be so sure

You say me – here are 20 reasons why.

Words collected lately::

“I will stand in your shadows and tell you I am not afraid of your dark.”

There is some kiss we want with our whole lives,
the touch of Spirit on the body.
Seawater begs the pearl to break it’s shell.
and the lily, how passionately it needs some wild darling!
At night, I open the window and ask the moon to come
and press its face against mine.
Breathe into me.
Close the language-door,
and open the love-window.
The moon won’t use the door,
only the window.
-Rumi

We, unaccustomed to courage
exiles from delight
live coiled in shells of loneliness
until love leaves its high holy temple
and comes into our sight
to liberate us into life.

Love arrives
and in its train come ecstasies
old memories of pleasure
ancient histories of pain.
Yet if we are bold,
love strikes away the chains of fear
from our souls.

We are weaned from our timidity
In the flush of love’s light
we dare be brave
And suddenly we see
that love costs all we are
and will ever be.
Yet it is only love
which sets us free.

by Maya Angelou