Non stop to Paris – January 8th 2018.
Ten years I have been traveling to Paris.
Heart full and grateful is all I can muster.
Rain was pouring this morning so I was able to go on my run. Chris chose to work from home so he could see me off. Naturally, he made banana muffins. He drove me to the bart station 4 blocks away so I wouldn’t have to walk in the rain with my bags. As much as I have traveled I always bring too much stuff.
I peeked out my window to the night sky and was surprised to see green clouds dancing in the night sky.
they were only there for a few minutes more.. my timing couldn’t have been more opportune.
May you be startled.
May you be who you want to be.
May you have courage.
My plans and schedule is to enjoy, see people, do some projects, eat a lot of duck and croissants and enjoy my city.
I’m staying with Amel, and have plans to run with Yasmina, dinner with Imane , hanging out with lili who has come into town to see me and of course some open mic nights.
We are all living a story that we aren’t really aware of. The narrative always taking the turn we least expect.
Almost six years Paris has been my second home. Although this trip feels more like a memory of what used to be.
I’m a very different person that when I first booked my one way ticket with a broken heart and searching for a new life and a reprieve. I was naive, hungry, grasping at something to pull me up.
It took me a while, but I found that strength and purpose in myself once I was able to focus. I gave that stability to myself. I am so grateful that I allowed myself that process even though it wasnt’ always a pretty road.
Now I’m settled, self-aware, engaged, confident person who finally knows her strengths and weaknesses and seeks to embrace my process instead of running away from it. I’ve pushed myself forward, learned how to let someone in, dug deep and found out what I’m capable of.
Life is so full of so much more then I have yet to imagine. New challenges await around the corner. I’ll survive, I’ll find joy and feel strength once again. Delicious ambiguity.
Things I’ve learned about last year::
How to water color
about US history, how to go back to school and how I don’t suck at it.
how to communicate better, how to share a home with someone, started the journey of a life with someone
How to save me from myself
Things I want to learn in 2018::
How to not lose my shit in stressful moments
How to make space for people to be themselves and not affect me
Space for myself to be creative, be connected and inspired
I want to feel alive, and enable that in the people around me as well.
