April 22, 2018

Three week countdown to nuptials

thoughts of what marriage is, means and what do I want out of it

Pilates x2, boot camp and running 10 miles to get that booty just so

crazy conversations with dad, a sister that doesn’t get it, a sister that does and my personal bingo card to collect them all

stress bickering and misunderstanding my partner, I’m really so ready for the planning to be over

missing veils, non existent veils, half done jobs and me trying to keep my cool to leettt iiittt gooooooo

my own guilt of excepting this goodness, this man and this life, my heart is full, and grateful and worried that I’m taking advantage of it all

plants and new flowers, fresh growth from my seedlings bring me peace and simple joy

mama bird making her nest out of my extra, hidden away by our door step, our private theatre show, now a family of five and witness to a sweet aspect to life

ramping up to friends from out of town, festivities and vows. Vows! I promise to care, and listen, to myself and you, to be patient and present, my lover my friend and my partner.

Make decisions out of hope not out of fear.

I win.